Final Day – Day 15
Just over a week later than planned but, I have finally got round to writing a blog post about my final day on the pain management program. I can’t believe I have already been out of hospital a week and have somehow managed to go out and get things done. I must admit that I have been suffering over the last week as the pain and fatigue have hit me hard. Continuing to stick to a routine has also been a struggle although, I am determined to eventually get into the swing of getting up early and having a productive day even if I only accomplish one thing.
Anyway, so we finished the program on Friday 27th and were all travelling back home for the final time by about 2. The last day was mostly about recapping what we had learnt over the 3 weeks and setting goals that we planned to pursue until our next meeting in a months time.
In our last session of Psychology, we spoke about a choice point. The choice point represents the present moment. At any given moment, we can choose to act in a value consistent or a value inconsistent way. I will insert a picture below which will explain;
We all also had the opportunity to share our goals with the group which turned out to be quite emotional for some. We had all become quite a close-knit group that helped and supported each other so, it was hard to take in the fact that we would all be going back to the real world. We are now all on a whats app group so we have been able to keep in contact and share our successes and struggles. It is nice to know that there will always be someone to talk to that understands. I said that I wanted to get back to painting as it is something that I previously enjoyed doing. I also wanted to take up yoga as I had found the light yoga we had done during some physio sessions had been enjoyable and helpful. I thanked the entire group for being so supportive during our stay and for treating me like an adult. I couldn’t thank them enough for being such a wonderful, charismatic and strong bunch of people who I have the pleasure of calling my friends. Without them, I don’t think I would have stayed on the program.
During our physio session, we all spoke about something we had learned from the program. I said that I had learnt not to push myself so hard and that it is ok to only do 50% rather than 100. I have always struggled to take a step back and realise that always pushing myself often makes me suffer more than I need to. It has been hard to come to terms with the fact that I am not always capable of doing 100% of something but, I am slowly coming round to the idea that sometimes less is more. We then each led an exercise of our choice and it was surprising how much we had remembered. Lastly, we did a final body scan and focused on the differences between our bodies before and after exercise.
Our Occupational therapy session was very quick and it was just a final round-up of what we had learnt from our time at the hospital. He said his final goodbye and told us to focus on what is important to us and take small steps in the right direction to reach our goals.
Finally, we had a team goodbye where all the staff members wished us all luck and hoped that we had found the program helpful. We will have a follow-up group meeting in a months time and another in 9 months. We all stayed to have lunch together for the last time before heading home.
It is crazy how much can change in the space of only 3 weeks. I have done more during this time than I have done in months. I have followed a routine, met some lovely new people, exercised, socialized and made productive use of my time. I wouldn’t say it has been life changing but, it has definitely changed my outlook on things and given me the motivation to focus on what is important. Meeting so many new people who were all different ages and from all different backgrounds really helped me accept my situation and appreciate what other people are also going through. Talking to these people was such an eye-opener and I couldn’t ask for a better bunch. We laughed, we cried, we bitched and smoked our way through a crazy 3 weeks but, we have all managed to accomplish something that many of us didn’t believe we could. It has given us all a new lease of life and I hope that we will all be able to make small steps in the right direction.
Thank you so much for reading and commenting on my daily blogs. It means so much to me that I had and have some online support throughout this journey. It was important to me to share my experience so that I could help other people understand what happens on these programs and perhaps learn something new. I know some people may be unable to attend a 3-week residential program, so i have included as much detail as I can to help anyone and everyone who reads. I plan to continue blogging as regularly as I can and would love to know if you have any questions about the program or anything else. I am also always here for a chat.
Thanks again 🙂